Gone ([info]sexyquailninja) wrote,
2005-07-12 05:15:00
  • Mood: pensive
  • Music: Ivy - Back in Our Town (in my head)

Levi

Well, it's pretty certain now. He's leaving.

He got a great job offer in Naples, Florida, and pending his liking the job (his boss is sure he will), he's going to take it. It's a really good promotion and a really good raise, so it makes sense. It could open all kinds of doors to him, as he's going to be second-in-command to one of the most respected people in his field. It's a great opportunity, so why hesitate? Oh yeah, IT'S IN NAPLES, FLORIDA.

Not that Naples doesn't appear to be a lovely town. It seems very nice. It's just the fact that it's, oh, HALFWAY ACROSS THE COUNTRY that's the problem.

If he goes, he leaves at the end of this month. I'm not crying right now, but I guarantee I shall later. I know other couples have survived distances like this, and we've decided to make it work as much as we can, but logic fails me right now. He won't be here anymore. I totally took him being here for granted, which of course I didn't realize until tonight when he told me the news.

This isn't what he's supposed to do. He should just stay here and marry me. There, I said it.

I'm in no hurry for that, but it has crossed my mind on more than one occasion. I can't tell you how much I love him, and all the consolation and logic and flowers and puppies and stickers in the world won't change the fact that I'll miss him more than just about anything. Well, maybe the stickers, but only if they're glittery stickers.

I'm considering my options.

Love sucks sometimes, but I hate to say it's not worth the trouble. Now that I think of it, he is, and here's why:

Me: You could think to yourself, "Listening to her talk is like poetry."
Him: Yeah, Vogon poetry.


It's a reference to Douglas Adams' The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. The Vogons are a race of aliens that create the third worst kind of poetry in the universe. In one Vogon poet's case, his intestine killed him to spare others the pain of having to listen to him. If you still don't understand what's so funny about that, just understand that it was delightfully geeky of him, which I, of course, find enormously appealing.


I believe him to be worth the trouble, but it doesn't mean I'm not very sad. There's nobody else in the world like him. Although I want him to take this job it's best for him, I'll miss him more than I can say. I know I can get along without him, but at the same time, I wonder how I'll do it. He's a huge part of my life...
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[info]kasr_1814

July 12 2005, 12:20:43 UTC 6 years ago

im sorry. hang in there

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:48:28 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you.

[info]firthy

July 12 2005, 13:00:53 UTC 6 years ago

Sorry to hear that.

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:49:04 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks for your concern. We're going to try to make it work.

[info]bluwhisper

July 12 2005, 13:09:13 UTC 6 years ago

Aww, Carol. This makes me want to do something to help you out. Need me to slash his tires?



[joking about the tires]

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:49:52 UTC 6 years ago

Too bad that was a joke because he can't drive to Florida with slashed tires! ;)

[info]memedawn

July 12 2005, 14:11:56 UTC 6 years ago

I'm sorry Carol, it is really hard to be apart from the one you love. If it is meant to be, the God will work it out. I will be praying for you.

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:51:59 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks, Misty. Interestingly, I think he has more faith that this will work out than I do. I guess this is the real test for us. I hope it works. :)

[info]liamtheruiner

July 12 2005, 14:55:00 UTC 6 years ago

best ldr song ever

lowest of the low - subversives

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:52:16 UTC 6 years ago

Re: best ldr song ever

I loved it. Thanks. :)

[info]liamtheruiner

6 years ago

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[info]emaline412

July 12 2005, 15:58:41 UTC 6 years ago

Ohh :(
That is the worst, hon. Hang in.

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:52:41 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks. You too, because it sounds like you're sometimes in the same boat.

[info]jugglergeek

July 12 2005, 16:39:32 UTC 6 years ago

Having been there, I can say that having to do the long-distance thing for a while is actually good. It allows you some perspective and makes you be more honest and objective with yourself about the relationship, since it removes you from it a bit. I personally think that it's a hazing every serious relationship should go through, for exactly that reality check.

Not that that makes you feel any better now, but oh well. :)

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:54:51 UTC 6 years ago

I know you're right. But that doesn't mean I like it! :)

[info]mundane

July 12 2005, 18:29:16 UTC 6 years ago

Hm...as someone who is currently doing a Kansas/New York thing I can say it pretty much sucks all the time...but if he's worth it, he's worth it and that's that, you know?

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:55:27 UTC 6 years ago

Yeah. I'm sorry you're in the same boat, but I'm glad she's worth it too.

[info]evilegan

July 12 2005, 23:57:58 UTC 6 years ago

Sorry about Levi, but Naples is a really nice and expensive town. I hope you get the chance to visit him.

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:55:44 UTC 6 years ago

Me too. :)

[info]phoenixrose

July 13 2005, 00:30:54 UTC 6 years ago

I've been in a long distance relationship for 4 years. Yeah it sucks but it's a good relationship. There have been plenty of ups and downs.

Is there any way you can join him? If not now, maybe in the near future?

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:58:34 UTC 6 years ago

It's always encouraging to hear from people who have maintained long distance relationships, so thanks, and I'm glad yours has continued in spite of the distance. :)

It's possible that I can join him in December or anytime after that, because I'll be done with school. I promised myself, however, that I'd only go if there were plausible employment opportunities for me, since the job market is kind of tight right now... So, I guess we'll see. I hope I can join him, but if not, I guess we'll just continue to make it work.

[info]mysteryuser

July 13 2005, 03:23:17 UTC 6 years ago

Hey carol

You'll be fine, trust me ;)

[info]sexyquailninja

July 13 2005, 23:58:59 UTC 6 years ago

Re: Hey carol

Thanks, Donnie. So happy that you and Kristan are fine as well. :)

[info]____z____

July 13 2005, 07:40:02 UTC 6 years ago

Just a warning from a southern boy. First off, don't let this sound like me dissuading anyone from taking a great job opportunity, personally I'm of the mind set that if you find the "right" job than you should take it, even if it's in HELL! But seriously, a warning, Florida is a shitty shitty place! The beaches are nice...for like a weekend, but they are dead 10 months a year because no one can afford to live there and all the non-coastal parts of FL and most of the Gulf Coast are really really shitty! Now, if it's a sweet opportunity, than he should prolly just deal with it and take the damn job, but be warned, FL sucks pretty bad, Other than Disney World there is no reason to go there for more than a weekend.

Love you Carol and I know what it's like to live a bazillion miles away from your favorite person. I'm sending you massive amounts of cyber sympathy as we speak. Don't worry about the distance relationship thing though, it does suck, but it doesn't change the fact that if the two of you are meant to be together, than you will. It's part of the plan, and 1000 mi isn't going to alter the plan.

<3 + sympathy x infinity
Zak

[info]sexyquailninja

July 14 2005, 00:01:48 UTC 6 years ago

Lucky for me I don't have to live there, I guess. :)

Thank you for the kind words and cyber sympathy. I'm sending happy love vibes to you right now, because that was just what I needed.

Anonymous

July 18 2005, 18:14:23 UTC 6 years ago

Sorry to hear about that Carol. Leonard and I have been doing the long distance thing for almost 2 years. Right now it's Arkansas-Oregon. It really sucks, but he'll be here in October or November for good, so things do work out.
Katie

[info]sexyquailninja

July 19 2005, 14:22:38 UTC 6 years ago

Hey, Katie!

First of all, I'm happy to hear that things have worked out in the end for you two. :) Second, thanks for sharing. The voice of experience always helps. Really.

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6 years ago

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[info]firstbigweekend

July 20 2005, 18:03:51 UTC 6 years ago

I read this (finally)! ;)
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